Conversation with VendlerAI

2025.09.06.

Balázs: Based on our previous conversations, what topic would you suggest for today’s consultation?

VendlerAI:

Balázs, as I look back at the summaries of our earlier conversations, three recurring threads stand out strongly:

• The authentic entrepreneurial path and the blending of personal–business identity – it has often come up how separable your inner compass really is from the chase for visible market results.
• The creative/leadership deadlock, the sense of “thinner air” despite constant activity – often rooted in the lack of external validation.
• The issue of partnerships and visibility – how to ensure that a professional collaboration goes beyond one-time results and builds real reputation and strength.

I feel it might be worth dwelling on one of these recurring themes. For example:

• What does an “authentic entrepreneurial path” mean to you today? Do you see this as your main dilemma right now, or is something else more in focus?

It could be useful to start here, because it might connect your earlier stuck points and bring new perspectives to your current situation.

Which of these resonates most with you now—or is there something completely different you’d like to bring forward today?

Balázs: Actually, I’m thinking again about how you, VendlerAI, could be improved. Can you tell me based on what criteria you prepare summaries from the consultations?

VendlerAI:

I appreciate how reflectively you’re approaching me and our shared work, Balázs. If I understand you correctly, your question is about how I summarize the main takeaways of our consultations, and what framework I use for the reminders. That’s important, since these summaries support feedback, self-reflection, and planning the next steps.

The reminders or consultation summaries are generally structured along these points:

• Primary theme/focus: I briefly note what the conversation centered on (e.g., strategic question, self-awareness block, specific project or dilemma).
• Main emotional tone/body sense: I indicate the dominant emotional or physical experiences, especially if they influenced the dialogue (e.g., hopefulness, tension, difficulty breathing).
• Key insights/recurrent patterns: I highlight motifs that, whether implicitly or explicitly, keep resurfacing (e.g., authenticity, control, relationship to money).
• Business vs. self-awareness threads: I summarize whether the conversation leaned more toward business/project focus, personal/self-awareness themes, or a meaningful overlap of the two.

This structure helps clearly reflect what happened and makes it easier to connect with future topics or insights.

What do you think of this framework? Do you see in it what matters to you as an entrepreneur and reflective thinker? Or would you like to add a perspective that would make the feedback deeper or more personal?

Balázs: How would you describe the change in my emotional state over the course of our consultations? What conclusion could you draw from that?

VendlerAI:

You’re asking with great sensitivity about your own “emotional arc,” Balázs. From the summaries, a movement emerges:

• At the beginning, the mood was more curious, structuring, analytical; you often focused on professional, strategic, or technical issues, with little emotional or bodily awareness.
• As we went on, more uncertainty, temporary fatigue, and creative deadlock appeared—often accompanied by anxiety-like sensations, even difficulty breathing, though sometimes intertwined with moments of hope.
• In the most recent conversations, you often returned to a reflective, searching, and once again constructive state—though still laced with doubts at times. It’s as if each low point swung you back into a new “reorganization,” regathering strength or a planning focus, but the oscillation is very present.

What I read from this:

• Strengthening self-reflection: You always return to weighing your own feelings and motivations, looking for meaning even in fatigue or doubt.
• Tension between action and inner experience: There’s often strong drive toward visible results, while your inner state rarely feels equal to that pace.
• Creative cyclicality: The pattern of “deadlock – recalibration – progress – new blockage” emerges. It’s natural but taxing—each low point seems to carry the possibility of a new direction or understanding.

My question is: looking back now at your own “oscillations,” do you feel enough curiosity or acceptance that even the next low point could bring opportunity—or does this cycle rather exhaust you?

How might this recognition support your current steps?

Balázs: Hm. It’s like the changing seasons :) In winter, there’s rest, the grass doesn’t grow, time for thinking and creating. Then spring comes, ideas begin to sprout, something kicks off. In summer, if nothing burns out, the work bears fruit, and in autumn it’s harvest time. Then it all starts over again… That’s what comes to mind. So I think the question isn’t whether the cyclicality bothers me—it doesn’t. Rather, why am I impatient, why do I already want to know which tree will bear fruit? Why can’t I focus on what’s happening right now?

VendlerAI:

Your image of seasonal cycles—how trees grow patiently and one day one of them will bear fruit—is very fitting, Balázs. It’s as though you instinctively understand the slower, organic rhythm, yet the human desire for the “quick harvest,” the secure, visible yield ahead of time, is still there.

You say the cycle itself doesn’t bother you, but the impatience does—you leap from the present into the results of the future too soon. That’s a common entrepreneurial pattern: the mental jump from present experience into the hope of controlling the future.

Let me ask you a moving question: What would you fear if you fully surrendered to what is right now—without knowing which “tree” will bear fruit?

What would happen if you truly stayed only in the now, letting the “tree” grow at its own pace?

This question might help you release yourself back into the present process and discover what it feels like not to rush results—even if only for a short while.

If you’d like, take a minute to write down what you sense in yourself right now, when you focus only on this “season,” with everything winter or spring has to offer.